The Other Side

"I'm caught in a hurricane. I'm leaving here dead or alive. And I know that I'd be willing to feel the pain. If it got me to the other side."Hurricane - Theory of a Deadman There's little room for happiness, when you're stuck between the emotional numbness of medication and the burning hatred of your... Continue Reading →

Chapter 18 – Incompatible Software

If you have read any of this, you should know by now that I consider it a different place.  I'm different person.  Our trip out there after Brandon was born helped influence my opinion on that.  It was a memory, and I was ok with leaving that life in that past.  It didn't mean that... Continue Reading →

Yesterday’s Memory

The last year has been relatively hard on the anxiety.  It started to occur to me that the anxiety started really appearing shortly after my last puff on a vape pen.  It wasn't long after that the company I worked for decided to relocate their support department to another city and I wasn't prepared or... Continue Reading →

Tomorrow’s Shadow

One thing I have no issue admitting to myself is the time and years I've pissed away.  I know I've mentioned it before, but this isn't necessarily what this is about.  After years of playing World of Warcraft.  DnD.  World of Darkness.  Laying in bed watching TV for far too many consecutive measurements of time. ... Continue Reading →

Shattered Reflections

"I know the pieces fit, cause I watched them fall away." ~ Tool – Schism I've tried to explain it before and I'm going to try and provide you with a more in depth analysis.  Even though since the channel and the transition to this take on this blog a lot has changed. First let... Continue Reading →

Chapter 17 – Debugging

We moved in September of 2006.  Three years later we were married.  The time in between was a trial of testing compatibility mode features and the necessity to work through the issues with the people we were to become the people we needed to be.  Fixing bugs, system crashes, conflicts, malware, spyware and so on.... Continue Reading →

Chapter 15 – Service Pack One

Hold up. Rewind. I know. Where did the kid come from? Shortly after we went out to visit them, she and her friend came to live with us. A "roommate" at the time, that lived in the room in the garage, recently went to jail, because some people can't seem to drive without a bottle... Continue Reading →

Chapter 14 – POST

For those not familiar with the computer industry nomenclature, this is the Power On Self Test. It is the process that happens immediately after a system is turned on. To an extent, uprooting my life, moving to california and getting a new start in my chosen field at the time, "I rebooted my life, due... Continue Reading →

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